because some days stink as a parent

Today has been a day. Please, please someone tell me you have days like this. Days when 9 am feels much more like bedtime due to the number of temper tantrums, time-outs, spankings, and “conversations” that have already taken place. Days when you feel like crying because surely you have completely failed at parenting your just barely three year old.

My “go-to” habit on days like this is to blast worship music. It helps keep me calm because no one wants momma rage running around with toddler rage.

So today, I was fixing lunch. Bethany was screaming about something. Worship was playing and I started praying while fixing quesadillas. Now don’t judge me because I’m sure your prayers are much more holy than mine, but my prayer went something like this…”God this sucks!Every stinking day for the past two weeks it’s been fit after fit and I’m tired today.I’m over it. Seriously! What do I need to do, because obviously I’m not doing this right!?”

Wanna know what he said?? “When did I ever say discipline was easy. It’s hard. It’s hard for the one being disciplined AND for the one doing the discipline.”

What?? First, that wasn’t the answer I was wanting, but since He rarely thinks like I do, because, you know ,His thoughts are higher than my thoughts…I decided to go to the Bible

Hebrews 12:6 & 11 because the Lord disciplines the one he loves and he chastens everyone he accepts as his son….No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.

God loves my kids way more than I love them (unfathomable, but true!). And He says He “disciplines us for our good, in order that we may share in his holiness.” vs 10

So the the whole time he is disciplining us, he has an end goal – our holiness.

So, the first word of encouragement I got out of this is He feels my pain! He knows all too well how frustrating it is to watch a child purposefully do exactly what you asked them not to do or exactly what will cause them harm. He understands and does not grow weary. So I can constantly turn to Him as my source of strength and wisdom. Thank you Jesus!

The second word I got out of that is do I know my end-goal for my kids? Because with out a goal, how do I know I’m moving in the right direction, right? I think I know my end goals, but i’m not sure I’ve ever written it down. I think I shall do that soon! More on this later…

Today after Bethany threw so many fits she sat down with all her lovies and started singing “Jesus loves me” It was truly just a precious reminder to me that Jesus loves me. Even on my hard days, he is here with me walking with me. He reminded me that seeds are being planted in my kids life. Seeds take time to grow. I can’t expect my 3 year old to be selfless, kind and obedient overnight. But I can continue to plant and water the seeds. Our church, friends and family will help nurture these seeds too. And then eventually they will bloom into beautiful, loving, godly kids. I just need to be faithful in the process.   


Lane’s Birthday

Monday, May 13th was Lane’s 5th birthday. I originally planned to tape balloons on his door like I did for Bethany. However, after he fell asleep I remembered that he has several of his favorite school projects taped to his bedroom door. So, I changed plans and just put balloons in the little hallway to his room. He was so excited when he woke up on his birthday!

He ran to the table and found all his little presents wrapped in superhero paper!

Then, he and Chris spent a good bit of time launching catapults and driving remote control cars.

For his birthday breakfast, I offered to fix ANYTHING he wanted but he chose a frozen waffle. So, we stuck a candle in the waffle and sang Happy Birthday!

Then, it was time to quickly hurry and get ready for school. Lane was so excited to take his special snack to school. What did he want…cake? cupcakes? nope, plain sugar cookies with NO sprinkles or icing. (he was very clear about that!) So, that’s what we did! Mom found some really cute cookies that had birthday pictures (They were just like the holiday cookies you bake with a flag, a snowman, a heart, etc) I had never seen them before! So we had those and true plain sugar cookies. Gigi came and surprised Lane at school during his special snack. Lane was thrilled! [On a side note, Bethany came with me to Lane’s classroom and she had a blast. She sat like such a big girl at the table with him. She was SO PROUD to be at school! She even jumped in on a couple of class pictures!]

Sweet friends!
and Bethany 🙂

…and one with Mrs. Kay, the best 4K teacher ever! Lane absolutely adores her!

After school we took Lane to Treetop Family Adventure. We had never been out there before. Lane and Bethany had a blast playing in the playground, bowling and  

….”playing” miniature golf. Lane is in desperate need for his Papaw to come teach him how to golf. He has quite the unusual technique for hitting the golf ball!

We spent a VERY long time on this hole. It had four levels. The kids had a blast taking turns dropping the ball in the hole and watching where it would roll out on the next level.

After Treetop, Lane chose where he wanted to eat for his birthday dinner. He chose Don Pepe. Can you tell we like Mexican food just a little bit!

Overall, it was a wonderful day spent celebrating my sweet boy! We love you Lane!

Bethany’s Birthday

I love Birthdays! I love letting those I love know how special they are to me and how grateful I am that they were born! So obviously, the kids birthdays are a big deal around here. The whole day centers around them and whatever they want to do!

On Bethany’s birthday, when she woke up we all went in to her room wishing her a Happy Birthday! She was SO excited! I taped a number 3 out of balloons onto her door. (Last year I did that really cute pinterest idea of filling the kids bedroom with balloons while they were asleep. They LOVED it but it also started our day at about 4 am. I’m waiting a couple more years till I try that on again)


Then Bethany ran to the table, where a bunch of little gifts were waiting on her. Her presents were all wrapped in Hello Kitty. I think she loved they paper as much or more than the actual gifts. Even now, almost 2 weeks after her actual birthday, she still says she got Kitty for her birthday.




Then, we had a special birthday breakfast. She had a cinnamon roll with a candle so we could sing Happy Birthday. She SPAZZED out! The entire time we sang she cried and yelled No NO NO! It was only after the song that I realized she was scared of the flame on the candle. Oops!

After breakfast, we opened some of her new toys and played for a bit. Then we asked what she wanted to do for her birthday. THE ZOO!!! So we quickly got ready to go and invited Gigi to come along.


We had so much fun at the zoo! She led the way around. We saw the elephants and played on the playground. Then we found someone doing face paint! Lane wanted an Elephant and Bethany wanted an Alabama “A”.

                                                                               Roll Tide.

We continued looking at the animals. We made it to the giraffes at feeding time. Lane and Bethany had a blast feeding the giraffes.



After the giraffes, we walked around the corner and found camel rides!


Bethany loved the camel ride so much she asked to pet the camel afterwards!

We continued on and had the best time watching all the animals. They were all so active since it was close to feeding time. We watched a zoo keeper hide several fish in one exhibit. Then she released the cats. It was so neat watching the cats “hunt” for the fish!

We finally ended up at the children’s area. We did the new DINO exhibit first. Lane loved it!


Bethany was a little scared! Chris ended up having to hold her and sneak by all the dinos. Every time they would get close to a new dinosaur she would whisper in his ear “shhh. quiet!” So funny!

Thankfully, Bethany warmed up to the dinosaurs by the end!

Then we moved on the carousel. She rode 5 times in a row.


She only got off because we wanted to try to catch the zoo train. We hustled over to the train and made it just in time for the last ride of the day!

On our walk back to the front of the zoo, we found the photo booth. The kids wanted to take a picture so we took on set with family pictures and one set with Gigi and the kids. I love how they turned out!


About that point a rather large man with a growly voice came by to make sure we knew the zoo was closing. Yes sir!

When we got back to the car, it was time for Bethany to decide what she wanted for dinner. Mexican!

So we eat then went home after a fun-filled day. It was a perfect way to celebrate B!

I’m all growin’ up

Happy Birthday Lane!

You are 5 years old now! It seems like it was just yesterday that you were a tiny little fella leaving the NICU but as you reminded me yesterday ….

 You are “5 years old and all growin’ up!”


You are so sweet and kind. I pray daily that you keep you sweet, kind heart always. You are so thoughtful. You freely give those you love hugs and sugar! I cherish them and dread the day you are too cool to give hugs and sugar. But never fear, I will be that mom that keeps giving you hugs and sugar and telling you how much I love you.

You love to laugh and make others laugh. You love telling knock-knock jokes. Right now a typical knock knock joke for you would go like this:

Knock knock
Who’s there?
Shoe who?
Shoe coming out a tree bush pizza. (insert your uncontrollable laughter here.)

Needless to say, Mommy and Daddy gave you a joke book for valentine’s day and frequently google “kid jokes” to build your joke library! 🙂

You are a leader. Bethany follows you everywhere and does a lot of what you do (including telling stellar knock knock jokes!). You love Bethany with all your heart. Whenever you and I go shopping you almost always find something B needs or would want but you rarely ask for anything for yourself. Last night, you two were hugging so tight and saying you were best friends. You have no idea how happy it makes me to hear you two say those words. I pray you feel that way about each other forever!

You are so smart. Soo soo smart. Last night you were reading to me and a word stumped you. I can’t remember the last time a word stumped you. The word was rambunctious. Right now you really enjoy reading classic stories like “3 little pigs” and “Goldilocks”. You’ve have started reading the book to Bethany and then you guys put on little plays. Bethany is usually the big, bad wolf and you are all the little pigs.

You have really started asking questions about God and Jesus. I love your sweet question but I don’t always know the answers. “What’s God’s favorite flower? Does God like pizza?” If it’s raining you will say “Oh God must be waterin’ the flowers. That’s so nice of Him!” After church you will tell me about the “worshipin’ songs” you like to sing. Every Sunday, you get a sheet that has the story you read from the Jesus Storybook Bible and you will read that story over and over and over until the next Sunday. This week you have amazed me with several Bible verse you know. As much as I would like to say I taught you to memorize scripture, I think you learned them at your wonderful preschool! You LOVE singing “the B-I-B-L-E song and John 3:16.” You sing them constantly right now! SO precious!

Here is a little video of you making a “joyful noise” singing John 3:16

You truly are a blessing, Lane! I thank God daily for trusting us to be your parents. We love big boy!!

B turns three!

Happy Birthday Bethany Claire!

Three years ago, you came into our family and brought more joy and laughter than we ever could have imagined. I don’t think I’ve ever met someone who loved life as much as you do! You are always going full blast. Everything you do is all or nothing.


 Three years ago, your daddy and I marveled at all the little things about you – your long eyelashes and nails (Lane was born so early he didn’t have these! We didn’t know babies could be born already needing a manicure. I knew you were my girly girl right then!)

You are so smart. You amaze me daily. You know your letters, letter sounds, numbers to 20 and depending on your mood you can count even higher. 🙂 You have really become interested in reading books – The Froggy series is your favorite right now. You also love reading baby Elmo books and your “Jesus loves me book” (The Jesus Storybook Bible) You are starting to try to spell/read. You can spell Bethany, Lane, zoo, and cat. The other night while we were taking a bath you decided to spell tepee for some reason. You did a great job sounding it out!! You have learned to read some words. I was writing a letter the other day and you came up and started pointing to several words – I remember you saying “that says So, right mommy?”

You are stubborn. Oh my word, are you stubborn. I both love and hate this depending on the day. haha. The past month though, I have LOVED this. Whenever you decide something will be done (or won’t), you stick to your guns.  Right before Easter, we were putting you down for bed on night and you said you didn’t want your paci. I really didn’t believe you so I tried to put your paci in your bed so you would find it if you needed it in the night. Oh that made you mad! You grabbed the pacis, threw them out of your bed and screamed “I DON’T WANT MY PACI’S!!” And you haven’t touched one since.

This week, you potty trained yourself. I tried potty training you several months ago and you did great, but you did NOT want to wear panties – only diapers! Then Tuesday you woke up from nap completely naked asking to go potty. So, we went. Then, you asked for panties. You went the rest of the day without even having one accident! And you’ve pretty much continued on the rest of the week! I’m not sure who is more proud of you – us or you!

You want to go to school SO BADLY! Everyday when we drop Lane off you start crying and saying “but it’s my turn!” We already signed you up for 3k next year. We’ve been telling you for months that in order to go to school you had to be 3 and you had to tee tee in the potty. Diapers don’t go to school. We were hoping that would encourage you to start going potty. Well, last night we were telling you today was your birthday, then we asked how old you were going to be. You whole face lit up and you exclaimed “3!! I gonna be 3! and I tee tee in the potty! I gonna GO TO SCHOOL!!!!” Right then is where I wanted to crawl into a hole. The we had to have a long talk about summer vacation and all the fun we were going to do. It helped when I mentioned that Lane would not be at school and neither would Maggie or Miller. Then in the fall everyone will go back to school. I fear Lane’s last 4 days of school are going to be long. But at least you are so excited to go to school.

You love painting, chalking, bubbles, really anything artsy or outdoors! You love gathering pricklies (sweet gumballs) and giving them to mommy and daddy!



You love dogs but rarely want to get close enough to pet one. You play doctor every single day. You sing all day every day too! Sometimes you sing classic songs like Twinkle Twinkle. Sometimes you sing songs from cartoons like Doc McStuffin’s theme song. Sometime you sing church songs and sometimes you make up your own songs.
I love the way you say so many different things.
You say “I’m walkin’ on myself!”              translation: I’m walking on tip-toes.
You say:”a little minute”                            translation: a little bit + just a minute
You say: “There’s a bone in there!”            translation: I was choking
You  like to wear your busters.                  aka your slippers
You call polka dots “bubbles”
You call french fries “chicken fries”
You make me laugh daily. Someone mentioned the old country song “..she’s a wild one with an angel face.” and it brought a smile to my face just thinking about you. You are wild but you are sweet and precious. You snuggle like no one else. You give the best hugs. You love your brother and try to do everything he does.
This could go on all day long. You are unique – a rare gem and I am so thankful God gave you to us! You have my heart baby girl. I am so honored to be your momma. I love you!